I was happier this time last year.

I am seriously considering sobering up and selling an egg.

Times are hard, shit sucks.

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I have never been able to take a  hint before, or maybe I have and unconsciously chosen to ignore them. And I persist to piss people off.

Things are really good. Blackboard says that I am caught up and have really good grades.
I find that Im so much happier with myself when I keep busy

Im trying not to care about silly things anymore, like I use to. Recently I discovered a nasty habit of me giving a damn about little things, I dont know where the urge came from but I liked it when things never bothered me. Iam having a hard time differentiating the silly things with important things. Silly things have become more and more important and I cant tell the diffrence anymore. 

Lets start off on the right foot.

Fish tank at Pro Bass





Guns at Pro Bass



Snake




Melissas Dad is building a really cool huge modern house.










Monique is a Native American Therepist friends with Melissa Dad. She owns a farm and I learned how to thank the land after eating farm grown fruits and veggies. She taught us a lot.
This is her farm and lake she lived on.








































































The House
















Cd store and Melissas butt, I tried to get the Animal Collective and Lightspeed Chamipain poster.




Mexican Resturant






Grandmother and Senior Center dolls.






Asian stuff and downtown Columbia








Columbia University














Gun Range. My first time firing a gun.






I had a good time.
And my camera has a very annoying black spot on it but my birthdays soon so I think I will be getting a new one soon.

I hate that I have made so many stigmas for myself. I feel like I will never be successful because I am already so behind. The way I look at it out of everyone I know I would be the one not to do so hot in the future. Even though other people may not work as hard or deserve it. Or maybe I don't deserve it either and I am just fooling myself. I mean I barely have a place to live, jobless again, in debt up to the wazoo, and drastically doubt a bright future ahead. Please can I just disappear now.

So these two people raised this lion cub who they named Christian

This has been my life for as long as I can remember.

Me messing up and other people tellin me Im wrong.

Im almost 19 and I have been a burden for every person that I have ever crossed.